We are still waiting for the arrival of our little girl. She technically is not due until this coming Sunday but I started having some regular contractions Tuesday morning that eventually just stopped cold. So now I have been sitting waiting very impatiently.
The worst part of this waiting game is that I know what I am waiting for. I know the pain that lays ahead and I know the immense joy that follows that.
I have to say, I am experiencing much more anxiety this time around that with the other kids. I don't know if its from having done this twice now or if its because of all the craziness that happened after the last time, but I am having a harder time being at peace.
Tuesday when the contractions started, I was so excited and so terrified. Contractions meant things were really going to happen (or at least thats how it felt until they stopped). I opened up the bible app on my phone and the verse of the day was as follows. It was like honey to my soul.
do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
I love how easily Gods Word can speak to us where we are and what we are going through.
My mom has reminded me of that verse a few times since Tuesday and it has brought me back out of my anxiety and allowed me to focus, pray, and worship. Which has brought joy instead of anxiety and peace in place of fear.
Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
Last night as I was sinking back into some anxiety and fear, my friend texted me. It was perfect timing. Her message was simple.
" Praying and thinking of you tonight!! "
I told her a tiny bit about how I was freaking out and basically over-thinking things. And again God spoke to me through her words.
"...God has already proved over and over that he is watching over you and your little girl :) all will work out. "
It is the truth. God has already brought us through so many scary things with this little girl and He has shined victorious over each of them. He holds us in the palm of His hand, us and our little baby girl.
I love this verse from Isaiah. I totally get a silly picture in my head when I read it that is not at all like the rest of the chapter, but I still like it and it speaks to me the way I envision it in my head.
For I, the Lord your God, will hold your right hand,
Saying to you, ‘Fear not, I will help you.’
This may make you laugh, but I totally see God as the gentleman helping me step over a puddle. It must be the hormones or maybe just the romantic side of me, but thats totally what I see when I read those lines.
And isn't it wonderful to think of God in that light.
That He, the Lord your God, would hold your hand, comfort you and help you through it.
That is the picture I see in my head of my God today. The God that will hold my hand, give me comfort, and help me through the turmoil. I hope that you can see him like that today as well. That He meets you where you need Him and He helps you through while holding your hand.